A first letter from A first-time DAD
A FIRST LETTER FROM A FIRST-TIME PAPA
Dearest GG – my very own beloved,
Papa or Daddy or whatever you would call me in the future (let nature take its course lahJ), is writing this on the plane on Jetstar flying back now to Singapore to welcome your arrival to this world. Thank you for waiting for Papa patiently. That’s probably my first instruction to you and I am so proud you obeyed.
Like your Mama, I am very eager to see you and hold you in my own hands, and to feel the warmth of your body, and the gentleness of your skin, and feeling your first breaths of life, the first gasps for air – your first sign of independence.
I am constantly amazed by how God created you in your Mama’s womb – something which I have never truly allowed myself to wonder at before. Only until your Mama’s pregnancy, did I realize the awesome and mystical creativity of yours and my Almighty Father in Heaven. Remember HE is your bigger (or biggest) PAPA in heaven.
I am very excited to be your Papa and the Papa of your other younger brothers & sisters (hmmm… if God blesses us with more kids). But at the same time, I wonder if I will be a good Papa. Papa will try to be a good one but you know that Papa will also make mistakes – because I am, like you, human and therefore sinful. There will also be times you will see the ugly side of Papa. But do believe me that I will always want to change so that I will be more and more like our Lord Jesus Christ, who is the Son of God. So GG, learn from Papa ok, as I learn from Christ.
I only pray that PAPA in heaven will help me to be a good Papa – although I will never be perfect, or try to be a perfect one. We will maybe sometimes make each other angry, sad or upset. But I pray that we will also learn to forgive each other and grow even closer through those not-so-happy times. But I pray those unhappy times will be few.
Instead, I trust God also that we will have many happy moments together – like playing together, praying together, reading together, going for outing together (yes, I want to visit the zoo again with you – it will be fun, I haven’t go to the zoo for a long time now), studying together (ops! I think studying can be fun though), and many other things together. Papa can also be a fun person you know J … just like Mama.
I believe we will enjoy each other, including your Mama and your sisters/brothers. But most important of all, Papa always prays that we will enjoy God the most. That is why when Mama and I discussed your name, we want to take it from Psalm 21 & 37. Especially Psalm 37:4 – “Delight in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart.” Do you know that you are the desire of our hearts – Mama and Papa wanted to have a baby and God answered our prayers! I remembered that early 2007 I dreamt about us having a baby – and I think that is you. And then, in Feb 07, we were so happy to learn that Mama has conceived you.
We want you to know that we always desired you, we love you and we accept you. You will always be our own flesh and blood. But Papa also made a prayer to God that we want to learn to surrender you to God.
Mama and I also thank God very much for a very smooth pregnancy. Your Mama did not have many difficulties when she carried you. It was God’s grace (oh yes, that is your Mama’s name, GRACE). When we were worried about your Mama’s thyroid problem during her pregnancy which may affect your growth, God also cured her completely of it. It was God’s GRACE. When your Mama had gestational diabetes (wow! That’s a big word to understand – next time we will explain to you) during pregnancy, God again cured her of it. It was God’s grace again!!!
Remember GG, live up to your name. Whatever you do, God can make it successful. Whatever you desire, God can give you. But only if you learn to delight in the presence of God and to delight in His will. Understood? Well, Papa hopes to guide and teach you in this. Maybe next time when you are older we can talk about it together.
Well, it is a very long first letter. I will write to you again. Maybe next time you can write to me and Mama too.
I am so eager to see you, to feel you, to touch you, to smell you, to hold you. Because you have been so patient, Papa will also learn from you and be patient too, until you safely arrive in this world.
I love you, GG and I love your Mama too. I also love God very much too.
I really pray that you will also learn to love God, your Creator, the Greatest One who carefully formed you in your Mama’s womb, and breathe His breath of life in your body and spirit.
Love,
Papa
25th October 2007
10:51pm Singapore Time
Dearest GG – my very own beloved,
Papa or Daddy or whatever you would call me in the future (let nature take its course lahJ), is writing this on the plane on Jetstar flying back now to Singapore to welcome your arrival to this world. Thank you for waiting for Papa patiently. That’s probably my first instruction to you and I am so proud you obeyed.
Like your Mama, I am very eager to see you and hold you in my own hands, and to feel the warmth of your body, and the gentleness of your skin, and feeling your first breaths of life, the first gasps for air – your first sign of independence.
I am constantly amazed by how God created you in your Mama’s womb – something which I have never truly allowed myself to wonder at before. Only until your Mama’s pregnancy, did I realize the awesome and mystical creativity of yours and my Almighty Father in Heaven. Remember HE is your bigger (or biggest) PAPA in heaven.
I am very excited to be your Papa and the Papa of your other younger brothers & sisters (hmmm… if God blesses us with more kids). But at the same time, I wonder if I will be a good Papa. Papa will try to be a good one but you know that Papa will also make mistakes – because I am, like you, human and therefore sinful. There will also be times you will see the ugly side of Papa. But do believe me that I will always want to change so that I will be more and more like our Lord Jesus Christ, who is the Son of God. So GG, learn from Papa ok, as I learn from Christ.
I only pray that PAPA in heaven will help me to be a good Papa – although I will never be perfect, or try to be a perfect one. We will maybe sometimes make each other angry, sad or upset. But I pray that we will also learn to forgive each other and grow even closer through those not-so-happy times. But I pray those unhappy times will be few.
Instead, I trust God also that we will have many happy moments together – like playing together, praying together, reading together, going for outing together (yes, I want to visit the zoo again with you – it will be fun, I haven’t go to the zoo for a long time now), studying together (ops! I think studying can be fun though), and many other things together. Papa can also be a fun person you know J … just like Mama.
I believe we will enjoy each other, including your Mama and your sisters/brothers. But most important of all, Papa always prays that we will enjoy God the most. That is why when Mama and I discussed your name, we want to take it from Psalm 21 & 37. Especially Psalm 37:4 – “Delight in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart.” Do you know that you are the desire of our hearts – Mama and Papa wanted to have a baby and God answered our prayers! I remembered that early 2007 I dreamt about us having a baby – and I think that is you. And then, in Feb 07, we were so happy to learn that Mama has conceived you.
We want you to know that we always desired you, we love you and we accept you. You will always be our own flesh and blood. But Papa also made a prayer to God that we want to learn to surrender you to God.
Mama and I also thank God very much for a very smooth pregnancy. Your Mama did not have many difficulties when she carried you. It was God’s grace (oh yes, that is your Mama’s name, GRACE). When we were worried about your Mama’s thyroid problem during her pregnancy which may affect your growth, God also cured her completely of it. It was God’s GRACE. When your Mama had gestational diabetes (wow! That’s a big word to understand – next time we will explain to you) during pregnancy, God again cured her of it. It was God’s grace again!!!
Remember GG, live up to your name. Whatever you do, God can make it successful. Whatever you desire, God can give you. But only if you learn to delight in the presence of God and to delight in His will. Understood? Well, Papa hopes to guide and teach you in this. Maybe next time when you are older we can talk about it together.
Well, it is a very long first letter. I will write to you again. Maybe next time you can write to me and Mama too.
I am so eager to see you, to feel you, to touch you, to smell you, to hold you. Because you have been so patient, Papa will also learn from you and be patient too, until you safely arrive in this world.
I love you, GG and I love your Mama too. I also love God very much too.
I really pray that you will also learn to love God, your Creator, the Greatest One who carefully formed you in your Mama’s womb, and breathe His breath of life in your body and spirit.
Love,
Papa
25th October 2007
10:51pm Singapore Time
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